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Hey, guys.

It's been a long time coming for a new post. I won't delve into how much I miss writing because if I really did, I would've wrote it much sooner. Thanks to my close friends and colleagues, they provide me a channel to rant and vent without the use of a keyboard. But to be honest, it's really not the same when I put things into words.

One of the things that I wrote on my to-do list for 2022 is to enrich myself with knowledge. Hence, I bought a Kindle to motivate myself to read. It's always troublesome for me to do some light reading when I'm outside. Ironically, I always like to read outside somewhere at a café instead at home. Most probably it gives me some. Plus, it doesn't help when most of the books that I bought are hard covers and it's such a pain in the ass to carry even a book anywhere. With Kindle, I can carry it around and alternate my reading to a different book. For those who are wondering, I bought the Kindle Paperwhite Edition and I would highly recommend it if you're facing the same dilemma as me.

For a couple of months, I was able to make it a habit to open up my Kindle. However, due to some circumstances, that habit broke and I left my Kindle collecting dusts. That's one thing that I'm not proud of and I'm trying to get back on that track.

It's really hard to maintain a habit especially when you doubt yourself if the thing that you're doing is going to really benefit you in any way. Knowledge is power but if you're not going to make use of it and eventually forget what you've read, it'd be like "mencurah air ke daun keladi." Haha. I can't believe I still remember that phrase. I used to be so good in Bahasa Malaysia. Now I'm just a Malay on paper.

This post is kind of boring, I know. I'm trying to warm up my writing skills again and I kind of nitpicking of the things I want to write. There are a thousand things I'd like write about but those things are quite personal to me and I want to adhere to the song that I like to listen recently that goes, ''I don't talk shit about you on the internet.'' Haha. You know the song.

Cheers.

Yours truly,
Danial.

Opportunity, Missed

 

Hi, guys.

I'm pretty sure that people are no longer blogging in this era of social media. Everything is made instantaneous and interesting. However, I'm still walking on this blogging path. There's an alluring and satisfying feeling when you can write your opinions and thoughts elaborately. Well, technically I'm typing but nobody likes a Ted Mosby. Haha.

A lot has been going on for the past couple of years, especially since I've stayed in Kuala Lumpur, a city full of opportunity and diversity. There's also a dark side of it, I've noticed. It's easy to get distracted and delve into the realm of wickedness. I shall leave at that for now.

As of late, I think mainly due to the CMCO, I've been thinking about the missed opportunity that I have had. Some potential endeavours that I have overlooked, most of the time, I was unaware of this. Probably due to my lackadaisical nature that has been with me since I was small or I don't know for how long. This realisation made me so disturbed and sad for a moment. And the hard questions ensued. "Am I not serious enough?" "Why didn't I take my time with this?" "How can I be so blind?" "Why didn't I appreciate that?" The reason I'm bringing this up is because I wanted to let you know that, I guess, karma has caught up with me. Not the stripper Karma from HIMYM, but that thing in life that will hit you hard if you were to continue of being oblivious of your actions.

Too long have I taken things for granted and let things go by without really looking into them. Experiences, friendships, relationships. I realised that now. Time will wait for no man. Somehow, I blame my comfort of being alone in my own head that grew me into this douchebag. Well, a friend of mine corrected that by saying "just a dash of douchie." Therefore, I'm trying to make amends, if not reconnecting back where I have left off.

I still have a long way to go, in terms of improving myself of being more aware and present in the moment. I hope what we can learn from this is that we should not be oblivious with the things that we have, even when it came to you unexpectedly. It's the things that came to us unexpectedly that can change your whole world entirely. Take it from the one who experienced that first hand.

Cheers.

Life is weird

 Hello there.

Life is basically messed up since the arrival of corona virus (COVID-19) and followed by the Movement Control Order (MCO). The plans to improve my physical fitness, enhancing my social skills and strengthen my bond with my peers are all in the drain. Not to mention, my mental well-being was put to the test. Being locked up in the house with limited space to move about is not the ideal situation for me. Like the king of the jungle, the lion, I belong out there, in the wild.

But every cloud has a silver lining. The MCO helped me to realise of what we always had all this while. The freedom to go about and the health that we have. I'm becoming more grateful since I know now the value of those, more than I knew before. MCO also helped me to hinder some of my potential unhealthy routine that had been developing back then. Who knows what I would end up be now if otherwise.

However, I can't help to feel helpless in another department, which is staying connected. Connected with my acquaintances. My friends. It may have been me or the situational factor but it all kind of falling apart for me. I shall try my best to keep in touch with the ones that have been supporting and care for me.

Life is pretty weird in 2020.

Yours truly,

Danial.